Ben and I are both required to have a full blood work up to test for communicable diseases so there's no possibility of us infecting the embryo(s) and Katy and Matt have to do the same thing so their embryo(s) don't infect us. Just more of that stuff that makes you realize just how much stuff goes into this. I went and had my draw this morning and, true to form, it was an experience. I have no problem with needles, I have great veins (thanks mom and dad!) and I'm an easy draw. Really can't mess me up. But boy did I mess them up. The whole place kind of felt like an alternate universe.
Little Wonders
For Katy and Matt. May you realize that each step of this is a little wonder, a small miracle. We love you! ~Kelly & Ben
Thursday, February 25
Mark your Calenders folks! Here comes the Vagina Exploration!
We have a big step on the calender now. The Sonohystogram (SHG) and Mock Embryo Transfer (Mock ET) have been scheduled. This is a big deal! A really big step in the process. Basically they are mapping out the terrain. Things until then will be quiet but after that, things will get very busy. I'm happy.
Wednesday, February 24
Truth
So in a moment of avoidance of my paper, I googled "hope" after I reread one of Kelly's posts. And it struck me... hope is an expectation. It may be combined with things like faith but in its essence it is an expectation. No wonder we struggle with "hoping" this all will work out. Our expectations in the past have been defeated so thoroughly wouldn't it be foolish not to lower our expectations now?
I do suppose it is different this time. There are so many new variables to consider but still, expectations when not met, can be the cruelest of cruel pain.
I do suppose it is different this time. There are so many new variables to consider but still, expectations when not met, can be the cruelest of cruel pain.
Thursday, February 18
No Time Wasted
Well, I guess it's official; at least according to the billing department of our specialist's office! It surprises me that they can charge for storage when a plan is in place for usage. I don't know why it surprises me. Hey what's another $100 in the scheme of things. It truly is pocket change at the end of the day I guess. Until you write the check that is!
Wednesday, February 17
Legal
Well, the legal conference call went better than I expected. He seemed very knowledgeable and personable. He walked us through each step at a perfect pace and was incredibly thorough. The greatest information was about the Pre-Birth Order (PBO). This document is set into place as soon as we really get going. This document allows for Matt and I to be the "natural parents", this means our names will immediately be placed on the birth certificate. The biggest part is that it allows for us NOT to have to adopt our own child and all that entails (home visit, social worker, court fees and other fees). This PBO was something, that in my personal research, that wasn't always clear as to whether Michigan allowed it. Thankfully the state does.
This particular attorney's office does things in stages and make things very clear and for lack of a better phrase "user friendly". Also the fees are some of the most reasonable. :) There is still a lot to know but I feel comfortable in saying that this hand we are holding will guide us well.
This particular attorney's office does things in stages and make things very clear and for lack of a better phrase "user friendly". Also the fees are some of the most reasonable. :) There is still a lot to know but I feel comfortable in saying that this hand we are holding will guide us well.
Walking Under Water
I spent Tuesday feeling like I was walking underwater, my brain numb and fuzzy, that is, until I came down with a migraine. I wanted so badly to be a fly on the wall during Kelly's appointment. I knew how tedious it can be and I wanted to be there to draw inappropriate pictures or crack some random joke; anything to make her smile and laugh. The whole process is so button-down serious, and maybe that's how it should be, but it feels suffocating to anyone with a sense of humor or a sense of time!
I really pray that every step of this process isn't as maddening as it was for me all those times past. It constantly feels like hurry up and wait. Right now it feels like slogging through the mud. Each step is difficult because your foot is being held onto by thick, sticky mud and all you really want is to sprint.
I really pray that every step of this process isn't as maddening as it was for me all those times past. It constantly feels like hurry up and wait. Right now it feels like slogging through the mud. Each step is difficult because your foot is being held onto by thick, sticky mud and all you really want is to sprint.
Tuesday, February 16
Finding gratitude among paperwork, new medical terms and information overload
Wow! Ben and I had our first appointment at The Fertility Center (From here on referred to as TFC) and I should have been better prepared. The appointment, which I was lead to believe would be 2 hours, was 3 hours! 45 minutes of which was a 300 question personality test given to me in a 9x9 room! Well who wouldn't have a 'personality' after that? I swear, if I read one more question that asked me if I was hearing voices, see things other people don't, think people are out to get me or watching me - I was going to run up and down the halls pulling my hair out! Really? If I was paranoid do they honestly think I would 1) be completing the survey, or 2) be honest about it?
Thursday, February 11
preparing for a hand cramp
So the appointment to have a preliminary conversation with the lawyer has been made. It's an information gathering appointment. I think this part will be interesting since I've always found law fascinating and maddening all at the same time. Though nothing put into writing or rules being set. Kelly, Ben, and Matt and I have a lot to talk about before that.
Wednesday, February 10
"Just write tummy tuck into your budget"
Last night Katy bravely, trustingly and maybe partially naively, informed me that there are 3 embryos, not 2.
T H R E E.
3.
1. 2. 3.
1 more than 2.
*gulp*
She casually adds, "it really doesn't increase the risk." The 'risk' being a multiple birth. Easy for her to say. Well not really I guess because the 'risk' goes home with her!
T H R E E.
3.
1. 2. 3.
1 more than 2.
*gulp*
She casually adds, "it really doesn't increase the risk." The 'risk' being a multiple birth. Easy for her to say. Well not really I guess because the 'risk' goes home with her!
Tuesday, February 9
First Appiontment
Today Matt and I went in for our first appointment as "Intended Parents". I was unable to sleep last night even after a hit from some cough syrup, but all to no avail. I expected some familiarity with the situation. After all, it's the same staff and the physical procedure I've gone through. But it was different today. They've changed their name and the facility is larger and my role has changed. It felt a bit surreal.
Monday, February 8
First Step
Tomorrow is our first appointment. We will meet with the counselor and then our donor coordinator who will hold our hand up until the procedure. I like her very much and she has been very, very helpful. This feels like putting the first foot out the door before a very long run. That could be a poor analogy since I don't run unless being chased. None the less, here we go!
How and Why We Chose Gestational Surrogacy
I always felt that surrogacy was a weird concept. I understood it on the surface but it just seemed strange. How could you really trust a stranger to carry your child? Why would they do it? Why would they put themselves through such an ordeal? The only answer I had was money. There was a fair amount of money to be made in housing someone's baby.
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