"T" day is fast approaching. It is difficult, to be honest, not knowing what the actual date will be. At this stage we have not even an illusion of control.
The emotional end is starting to make itself more known. It's confusion and anxiety mostly. I hate not having a precedent set, having some knowledge of the situation to fall back on. I've always known I'm more ridged than I care to admit but this situation really emphasizes that. Not knowing the date officially, puts my stomach into knots. Can't I have something so simple as a date? An estimated date is not enough. Something so concrete as a date offers sense, order, and with that peace of mind. I'm a planner, an obsessive list maker, how do I do this?
I so far have been very good about only crossing my bridges when I come to them and that worked well for the long term stuff, but then game time came and I wasn't really aware of it. I barely had my socks on, let alone my cleats. I felt like someone had knocked me between the eyes. The time is here, wake the eff up!
So now I'm throwing myself into the legal work. Trying to learn that in and out. We did have a set back with that because Kent County recently ruled to not honor PBO's (Pre-Birth Orders, the order that allows Matt and I's name to be placed on the birth certificate immediately after the birth). I was stunned. It is a very recent ruling and a really big step back for Fertility Laws. So, if Ben and Kelly move back to Kent we will literally have to find some other county for her to deliver in, which will most likely call for a C-section. Just when we think a certain are is going to go smoothly, it changes. My anxiety has been a testament to that.
We have another US and an E2 tomorrow morning in E. Lansing. This will give us more information on how Kelly's follicles and uterine lining are progressing. There will most likely be another US and E2 around Thursday or so and then we will have a better idea on the date. It could be on Father's Day.
Anyway, we are hanging in there, despite my shell shocked feelings. It's very confusing and exciting emotionally. Please keep Kelly, her family, and us in your prayers. Cross those phalanges!
Little Wonders
For Katy and Matt. May you realize that each step of this is a little wonder, a small miracle. We love you! ~Kelly & Ben
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